Realizing my Spiritual BiSexuality

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Oh dear. An aha moment has assailed me and laid me low. I am elated and appalled at once. My natural state of being really, but not in this measure of wave form. It has something to do with the ascension energies upon us now.

I just realized something about men and women. Man seeks the eternal goddess figure, while the woman seeks the eternal god figure. Partly because it’s a duality world of polarities. Part of this entails the quest for romance, a system of adventurous endeavors designed to fail, unless God is found in between the two who would be one. In this day and age of the perceived separation between science and religion, we have a ways to go before we will be free from the conflicts and warring factions upon our planet.

The problem with being on a warring planet, such as we observe the food chain in action, we call this to be a natural order, whereby one life form preys upon another for survival, thusly I define a predator world. The problem is that God was never on this planet in the first place as demonstrated by the holocaust whereby workers upon threat were instructed to throw still breathing bodies into the ovens of hell. Surely there is a creator being we cannot fathom while living a simple, uncomplicated one person life. And so we seek this in our relationships, man to woman style, and we look at the family unit, but more more importantly, we look at the family of humanity.

In our spiritual natures, we are both these items, both man and woman, inside the same being. Incarnating, we must decide what is best to be, in any one particular life, whether a man, or a woman, for the lessons are quite different, but one is not better than the other.

Oh dear. Now I’m recalling a time when I was laughing hysterically at what my guides told me; that I was entering that he/she area. I was to become a he/she.


It seemed dreadfully funny, as I so loved being a feminine creature as that seemed to be unfolding within me that graceful allowance towards life. Yet I recall my nurturing nature was not inborn, as a new mother, I was perplexed that I did not know how to mother, and that seemed the epitome of feminity. It was something I learned as I went along. A childlike spirit descended upon me, as I was reborn in spirit due to my persistent yearning to return to God, and home. Soon enough, all beings seemed to me to be but children also, while I kept loving and loving and allowing and allowing and was often swept up in God's love washed clean of anything dark still hanging there.

And now it has come to me that I am this balanced he/she. I can be aggressive and fight, as the male demonstrates, or I can be soft and receptive as the moment descends for that. I must have become what they said I was to become. A he/she. How extraordinary! This accounts then for my sense of nothing lacking within my nature, my supreme independence from seeking what is not lacking. And my earnest studies of being miracle minded gradually paid off.


Life after life, those of you who suspect you’ve had many lives, I need to informyou we devise our own deaths. In a sense, the higher self commits suicide by it’s own plans to take itself out at selected exit opportunities.

Yes, I have committed suicide in other lives, by declaring this is not my home. Why is this not my home? Simply because I am a spirit having a human experience. We cut each other slack to realize this.

There is too much competitiveness here. There is a lack of real love. A lack of generosity towards others. A lack of true cooperation among the different factions. This is why I say, this is not my home.

There is a lack of knowledge how to seed and cultivate the flowering of the new world. Yet I know, in my heart as I speak that I am part of the creation of that new world, that golden age where the heart will speak before the lips can react with a lie.


A man and a woman, in a true joining state, allowing of each’s differences, can help bring in the new world by their example to others. Yet we must keep in mind, escaping into the bliss of a true joining is not humanity’s purpose on this planet, it is only the place to start at. Each failure of this man/woman joining is also bringing the soul closer to the true reason for incarnating, in whatever polarity is chosen. A well rounded soul will have had many incarnations in both roles. Any holy instant of perfect unconditional love is a gifted moment of how it could be here, as it is done in heaven, in our eternal spiritual homes.

I am sprung then. I follow in Monroe’s footsteps to say “there is nothing here for me anymore.”

Each suitor who has appeared to me will call out for a certain balance in their soul. As a he/she I instinctively know what they need and it is never what they think they want. I do not use my physical body to fulfill their need, although I may touch them or hold their hand as guided.


As one under God, and not in control of my life, but given to God, in trust, I know from ACIM, that I do not know what a relationship is for.
Of myself. I speak J’s words, it is the father within which doeth the works.

Then I stand beside the Christ as One. I MADE IT! I’M HOME FREE! Yet none will celebrate my release from captivity with me if they are pursuing the pleasures of my countenance, my physical being, we call a body, and if they would devise a plan to take me into their home as an objective, to play a role.

So I sometimes feel quite alone and misunderstood. It is quite human you know. It is the Shambhala’s great sadness and joy simultaneously that is felt in the achievement of perfect balance. I am not piously inclined as this he/she thing. I distain such posturing as not real. Give your love to those whom you know are loving souls. Like souls recognize like souls.

That I am alone is great freedom from illusion and realization of my sovereign free will self determination to stay free of illusion. Right away, with God’s help I can tell a lie from the truth! There are no secrets anymore. Whatever I need to know, is given by God, because I have given myself to God, and now have complete protection from sin, or error, or being deceived by glamour, romance, or false projections which don’t include God’s will for man, that he should be free, and move within gracefulness, and in total joy as well as health.

In freedom, is joy. When entering the game playing zone, there will be moments of sadness that you cannot make another as free and joyful as you are feeling, and that their idea of love, is to have you share their conflicted area, which is not your area of endeavor according to God’s will, and you will just know as you will be guided as to your role.

For we need not be rescuers in the final analysis. Those whom need your message are brought to you by God. There are no accidental relationships. We are to be in a cooperative endeavor in the new age, each doing their part, but not necessarily doing more than your part, to say overextending or sacrificing themselves on the alter of love or good will, for it is not God's will to sacrifice yourself.

If you would know God’s love, God is Love, in purity of purpose. If you would know God’s perfect plan, then you would be allowing of God to show you the plan, and your perfect part in it. God’s love is to love you just as you are, no matter how you may consider your imperfections to be large or small. God does not care what you think about yourself. God is. God loves because God is Love and can do nothing else but accept you as you are, for you are the child of God and a parent cannot do else but love.

Consider God’s amazing grace. You are amazed you have a life. You are amazed to own a body. You are amazed how deep the love is that you feel. It is God’s love, for you are one with God. You are amazed because it flows so gracefully. It is free because it flows endlessly from you to you and in and out and never dries up.

You are free, because you were born free. Claim your ticket to heavenly homes now and know it is never too late to get onboard the train into the golden ages which is happening now. See no evil, speak no evil, hear no evil, you are the delight of God and he needs you to be completed. Give your cares to God. You will never be so joyful and so sad at the same time, that you ever thought you could escape from his Love, and build your own world of suffering. Do not self punish. Other's can do that for you. Remember, you were born free and innocent of crime, and you can leave this world the same way you came in.
Still free, still innocent and still loved just as much as in the beginning of time.
For all those who wonder of my sense of humor, God spelled backwards is Dog. The dog possesses unconditional love. Man does not know what unconditional love is.

Therefore, find out.